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Well, I'm 15, and like a lot of other people I think I had already known that I was attracted to girls. My parents have never sheltered me, and so from a young age I knew all about sex and things of that nature. TV ratings never really mattered to my parents either and so I would watch movies with heavy sexual content.

I can remember, when I was about three or so, I saw some movie where two women were having sex. I remember being totally amazed, and I thought how fun that must be since the female body is so intricate and beautiful. When I asked my mom why two women were having sex with each other she said something about it being disgusting. I couldn't understand why though!

As I got older, I became a homophobe. Anything remotely homosexual would scare the shit out of me. I still had relationships with guys, but unfortunately my childlike curiosity and innocence lead me to be taken advantage of and mentally abused by men and boys my age. Eventually I became insecure and confused and I felt so out of place because I wanted to be attracted to men, because it was "normal" and even though I have never been what one would consider normal, for the first ten or twelve years of my life I tried desperately to fit in.

By 13 I was severely depressed and suicidal. I ran into some guy off the Internet who completely messed with my mind for a year and told me horribly disturbing things that some people are into involving sex, which made me snap. I had taken enough abuse from guys and I was so afraid of sex and people, I just couldn't handle it anymore. I was hospitalized twice for harming myself and it was during the second hospitalization that I came out to my parents; I had already done so shortly before to my friends. My parents tried to tell me that I was confused, and that it was really too early to make any decision like that and blah blah blah...

My brother thought I was just trying to get attention for the shock value.

After I admitted to myself that yes, I was attracted to girls it was like I finally saw the light. I realized that I didn't want to be normal, and without any guys to mess with my mind I realized that I did in fact like myself just the way I am.

It's been about six months since I got out of therapy, and I'm proud to say that I have matured quite a bit. I don't hate guys, like some would expect, but I don't think I'll ever have a serious relationship with a guy again.

My best friend has asked me out a few days ago and we couldn't be happier. I have my 1st girlfriend!:)

My mom is still completely repulsed by gay people, but she likes to tell herself that she's all right with it, and my dad's actually pretty okay with it. I don't think they would be caught dead at a pride parade, and I really don't think I'd want to have them come with me anyway. I don't make a point to flaunt it in front of them, and I haven't told them about my girlfriend. I'm enjoying having her be able to come over and not have the whole weirdness of my parents judging her to see if she's a good influence or some bullshit like that. Plus, I honestly think my parents are in denial about me being a lesbian, because whenever we talk about it it's always metaphorically and figuratively speaking, never any specifics.

I've done a complete 180 from a homophobe to a loving and accepting lesbian, who proudly wears rainbows.

Good luck to all those who have the slightest question in their mind, and don't think you have to tell your parents right away. Sometimes, it's better to just correct them if they make any negative comments about it, let them know that you're okay with homosexuality and bisexuality first. Then as you get older they will eventually realize that you love a little differently and given time should come to accept it. As for your friends, if they shun you, you're better off without them.

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